Okay, so I am writing in hopes that all who read this will shower me with prayers on this Thursday morning, December 4. I'm such a goober and am EXTREMELY afraid of flying, and I am not exaggerating one bit! We will be flying out at 7 am for the Bahamas.....I know....I shouldn't even be complaining here, but hear me out... If it weren't for Maddie being in the wedding, I wouldn't be going. I've had several thoughts of how to "get out of it" since then, and feel so guilty and selfish for that. It's just that I am so, so, so, so, sooooooooo much of a hesitant passenger. I don't know what it is, if it's being out of control, the weird sensations you feel with all the dips and turns, or if it's the close quarters with so many strangers! Maybe a combination of all!!!! I've flown several times, including an overseas flight to Italy back in 2004, and I still have the same anxiety EVERY time!!!!!!
What I'm worried most about is freaking out in front of my kids and getting them upset. Maddie is very sensitive and picks up on ANY deviation from what is normal behavior from me. She's a lot like me in that she's a worry wart! So, I hope she doesn't freak out with me and us get kicked off the plane!!! Okay, I'm getting myself worked up just talking about it. If you told me right now I didn't have to go, I wouldn't! I hate that I've allowed my fear to create such anxiety in my mind and that I could care less about the amazing memories my family will have as long as I am okay. It's awful!
Therefore, I'm asking you all to join me in prayer on Thursday morning as we board the plane. Please pray for God to deliver me from this anxiety and to soothe my nerves and calm my fears. I know that He can help me through this and truly did so back in 2004, when I was pregnant with Madeline and had to fly with no assistance of medication, like I usually have. That was the longest AND best flight experience I've ever had, seems crazy! To me, that's an oxymoron! I know that God is in control....I just need to keep reminding myself that come Thursday!
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Oh, precious friend. I pray that you made it to the Bahamas, anxiety free! I can't wait to hear about it!
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